Random thoughts

Tonight, I started reflecting on phrases that I got tired of growing up.

Phrase 1:  Boys don't play with that.  Got that one every time I asked for a toy that was for girls.  After a while, I stopped asking because I would not get it.  For example, I wanted a mix and bake oven, got a toy gun instead.

Sensational Swimwear - It’s My Party

by: Lesley Renee Charles

Lesley was upset after catching her boyfriend, Johnny fondling her ex-friend Judy at Lesley’s 16^th birthday party. She wanted to get even with them for hurting her and betraying her trust. She wanted them to suffer for a long, long time. She decided to go window shopping at the stores downtown. As she walked along she noticed a new store, Sensational Swimwear.

From Knight to Dawn -- Part 3

First, I would like to thank Jezzi Belle Stewart for her suggestions. I have taken some of them and implemented them into the story. I hope you will enjoy the further adventures of Dawn. I want to thank everybody for their kind words regarding this story.

From Knight to Dawn -- Part One

by: Lesley Renee Charles

Sir Eric decided to take a short cut through the forest. He was a 6’ tall. The sun glittered on his flaxen hair.

From Knight to Dawn -- Part Two

by: Lesley Renee Charles

The Queen asked, "Shall we begin your lessons on how to act and behave like a lady?"

What makes a man?

I know the obvious answer would be having male genitalia and yes this makes a majority of men physically men.  But there are many women born with male genitalia and many men born without.  So that is not the

Giving of Power

When I was younger and more immature, I used to let other people push my buttons and get me upset.  I mean I would go off on the littlest things.  When I was younger, I hated my male middle name and once my dad found out he would call me by my first and then drawl out my middle name. This used to get me so mad,

What is it like to be transgendered?

I can only answer that from my perspective.  But let us do an imagination game.  Imagine yourself going to a mirror, your mind and personality is the same, but instead of seeing your normal face and body, you see the

Berdache

There is a tradition among Native American tribes of people called the Berdache.  I am going to copy a posting from Wikipedia.

My Poll

I put a poll up on what makes a man a man.  So far, I have one answer of cock and balls.  Yes, that is the physical sex part.  That is the reason, that when I was born, and the doctor saw what genitalia I had that society then put the expectations on me to act like a boy.  That was why when I wanted a doll or dollhouse I was told that boys don't play with those.  That was I couldn't have one of those ovens that you could bake a real cake.  I was forced to play with cars, planes, toy guns and balls, because the doctor made a mistake and called my male because of what was between my legs and not what was in my head.  Your brain gets wired by hormones into either a male brain or a female brain.  Female hormones were more dominant in utero for the first 8 to 10 weeks of my gestation.  The evidence of this is that my ring and index fingers are the same length.  If the male hormones were more dominant my index finger would be shorter than my ring finger.  Somehow during the period when male hormones wash over the brain and masculinize it that did not occur and my brain developed along the default which in humans is female.  Well whatever reason my brain developed along female patterns, so I see myself as a female and not male irregardless of my genitalia.  So clearly a cock and balls don't make a man, but a male wired brain does.

UPDATE:  Well so far there are three votes for cock and balls.  The majority says that this is what makes a man?  Please comment if you agree or disagree with this.

Transgender Fiction Sites

For those of you who want to read more of my stories that are posted here, I have decided to include the links to a few Transgender Fiction sites.  My stories are under the name Lesley Renee Charles.  There are many wonderful stories to read on these sites.  They are mainly about men being turned into ladies. 

The first one is Crystal's Story Site:  www.storysite.org

The second one is FictionMania:  www.fictionmania.tv


The last one is Big Closet:  http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/index.php

What Transgenderism means to me -- Part 2

I was not looking forward to the onslaught of male puberty.  Until then I could basically ignore what was hanging between my legs, not that it was all that big and did not get bigger during puberty.  A fact I am thankful for now, as I don't have to tuck it to make my panties fit right.  It just sort of flattens and leaves me with a flat front.  About the only thing I really got out of puberty was body hair, facial hair and erections, which I have always hated.  I am also grateful for the fact that I never developed an Adam's Apple and my voice never changed.

Two Great Blogs

On my blog list you will see two blogs that mean a lot to me.  That both are helping me to explore avenues and things about myself.

The first one is Male Protection by Chirenon.  It is great it has all kinds of boys being controlled by men and women.  It touches on boys being protected, engaging in all kinds of play, bondage.  And some great artwork and photo captions.  It has helped me tap into my submissive side and explore avenues of being a good girl.  It has photos and/or artwork that should appeal to all tastes.

The second blog is just getting started but it is still worth reading. It is Tongass' journey through chastity and development of spiritual, physical and self energies.  I find it very enlightening.

What is Transgenderism means to me -- Part 1

I am not going to provide a definition since the root and the word says it all.  Trans means to cross and gender is gender.  So literally it means to cross genders.  You basically are born transgendered whether you deal with it early or not.  When I was around three I remember coming to the conclusion that God made a mistake and I was born the wrong sex.  I knew I would have been happier being a girl.  I understood them better, wanted to play with their toys, dress like them.  When I was three I also walked on the balls of my bare feet, pretending I was wearing high-heel shoes.  When adult dress up clothes of both sexes was presented I chose the woman's clothes and ignored the man's clothes.  If we played house, since the mother was picked by the older girls I played with, I fought to play a daughter, even if the other girls wanted me to play the father.  I guess I felt I played the part of the male enough in my real life, in fantasy I wanted to be myself.

Master Chirenon

As your unofficial girl, what conduct do you expect of me?  What is authorized clit/nub behavior.

What is Masculine Energy

Now let us talk about Masculine Energy?  Well it complements Feminine Energy.  Where Feminine Energy is more receptive, Masculine Energy is more dynamic.  It is more energetic whereas Feminine Energy is more

What is Feminine Energy

I thought that I would open up a discussion on what either Feminine Energy or Feminine behavior means to you, the reader.

Acceptance

I have been posting comments on another blog, that deals mainly with male chastity.  I have found acceptance for who I am and I must say it feels really great.  I just wonder why the general public cannot be as accepting.  I know when I was practicing Catholicism, I was more judgemental in my outlook but once I started college, my mind was opened to other faiths, cultures and practices.  Since then, as I get older I have become more accepting and more interested in other things, I would never have explored.

My goal in doing this blog was to open up myself to others so that they can see a GBLT person is no different than anybody else.  I was born with gender issues, so that would mean that is how the Supreme Being wants me.  All though when I was a child I felt the Supreme Being made a mistake.  I do now realize that I am not a mistake and that I am glad to be who I am.  Sometimes the road can be hard, but I am trying to make the best of who I am. 

Anonymous Posting

I have opened it up so that you can stay anonymous when you post a comment.

Any questions about me.

I would love to answer questions that anyone out there may have regarding transgenderism .  Of course I can only answer from my own experiences, but where needed I will research out the answers.  I want this to be a place where people can learn and hopefully come to understand that transgendered people are normal and not to mistrusted.

My Story

by: Lesley Renee Charles

Part One - Preschool Years

I was born on Sunday, September 26, 1965 in Somerville, New Jersey. The first three years of my life were uneventful. Around the age of three, I realized that I would grow up to be female. I had no idea of the different plumbing of the sexes at the time so I just knew I would grow up to be a woman.

Reflections

by Lesley Renee Charles

I remember playing with several girls in my neighborhood when one of the girls decided that we were going to play dress-up in adult clothes.

A Fantasy in Shades of Scarlett

by:  Lesley Renee Charles      

I woke up from a good night’s sleep. When I noticed a sudden heaviness and pulling on my chest. I looked down to find a nice pair of breasts. I also noticed I was not wearing my usual pajamas but I white lace nightgown.

My photo.

This a photo of me, from the first time I was Lesley.  It was at a convention of people, the majority of which expressed gender opposite than what their physical sex was.  I had a great time and learned a lot about what the issues I just started dealing with and denied since my childhood.

Welcome to my Blog

This blog will deal with my issues of being Transgendered, in my case male to female.  I will post some of my fictional stories, thoughts and feelings regarding gender issues.  Even parts of my journey through my transition, if I decide to transition.  All I would like for you, who reads this is to keep an open mind.